A week or so after the text one I was telling a friend how hard it is to grieve the loss FOR Eddie. Sure, I miss him, my kids miss him but we are alive and busy and have to keep going. When I stop, when I am in the quiet of life, I feel the grief FOR Eddie - I grieve for what he misses and doesn't get to be a part of here. WIth that, my friend said, "but perhaps he is and the text and other signs are his way of really showing you he is here seeing it all with you." I told her I hoped so. After that, I left and went to a store for a friend. I quickly called her to ask which brand of something she wanted. My touches were simple - phone, favorites, friend number. After we hung up and I was in the check out line, I heard chimes. Very unusual chimes. I look around and finally realize the chimes are coming from my phone. I look down, press menu and swipe it and up pops:
I don't know how these things happen but I know it happened.
More recently, we went to our temple's family camp. We were outside at the morning shabbat service, a very special place for Eddie. Just as the Rabbi said, "it is now time to turn our thoughts to those that came before us." With that, a huge black and white monarch butterfly (which has been the butterfly before) flew down, flew straight to Dylan, fluttered in her face a bit and then flew around and out of the area we were in. It was awesome and even Dylan asked me later "Mom, did you see that butterfly? It flew right at me." I loved that she noticed.
It does make one wonder… could he possibly be around us? I hope so.
Hugs to all, Lorin