One year ago tonight, sweet Eddie let go and said goodbye to us surrounded by special friends and me with a waiting room full of most special people and our children. We told him we loved him and that it was ok to go. I never could have imagined the emptiness I would feel without him, the struggles I would face being a single parent or the fear that the best came and went so quickly. Yet, here I am still standing and somehow surviving through it all. I suppose the best part, if I was to say there was one, is seeing the true humanity that does exist. There have been so many new friends that have come my way, so many incredibly special people that might not otherwise have crossed my path. While of course they are not "worth" having lost Eddie, they certainly have made this road more bearable. They have helped to reaffirm that when God closes a door he opens a window and that even after the darkest nights, the sun does shine. It isn't always easy to remember during those dark nights but I try.
I thank all of those that have been here for us this year, that hold us up and carry us through the darkness, that have not forgotten us and that continue to wish us peace.
We wrote notes to Eddie on balloons today and sent them up to the heavens. I hope he somehow sees the words and somehow lets us know. We miss him dearly… forever in our hearts.